y me cant focus??!!

i have finals 2molo n i seriously do not have any mood to study! argh!! save me..

im having a love-hate relationship with my notes right now..T_T

i wana gt A bt my brain just couldnt focus.... i had a really really really short conc on the things i do.. and gosh! those paper are so boring!!

gah! help me! i need to memorise them! me wan dean list dis sem desperately...

anyway, a vain pic to thank you for reading my crap.. k.thx.bb~

ever had this feeling??

* quote was taken from facebook



hav u ever had this feeling before?


the feeling sure is awful isnt it?
yes, i believe so..
this person were so nice to you..
but you felt its normal due to da friendly-ness..


however,
the whole world start to think n see it in a different way..
story telling session..
they tell u their assumptions and make it as tho its so real...



til u started to think,
do i mean smth to that person?
or is it just some act of friendly-ness?
then u start to get confuse on every act..
and million question start popping out in your mind..
you could not find the answer..
left with no choice bt to answer your own question


telling youself..
enough is enough!
dun assume!


stress..
tension..
seeking for the answer...
seeking...
seeking...
seeking...
tired...


bt end up with no answer!
*big SIGH! *

smile

im back!

had been busy with all sorts of stuff in uni lately... lots of meeting, gatherings and what not..causing me lack of sleep n walk to class like zombie everyday..


i secretly suspect stefan frm vampire diaries sneak in my room and suck blood..dats y im forever tired da next morning...


bt anyway, im back wif a happy mood today. finally no more meetings late at nite! ^^v

apart frm that, i think i've finally learn to let go! n stop guessing and answering on behalf of others on those question i myself asked... n mayb i think too much..

i just cant explain this feeling of joy i had and definitely words cant describe it out! just be happy for me n share the joy, will u? xD



watever is urs wil always be urs....n dun assume stuff cz ur not god! :)


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*big smile*

go away nightmare!! T.T

hmm.. do u agree with me dat exams are tiring??

in my case..i am..dun ask me why..cz im stil figuring out.. =S

could not have proper sleep at nite..my mind is restless when im suppose to be resting..what am i thinking? smth went wrong with the system in my head i guess..


oh! n these few days nightmares are haunting me! T.T

so tired n cant wait to get over with it n get back my life.. exam = no life.. u cant enjoy..

even though u manage to find some tiny bit time to enjoy, the guilt of not studying is always haunting u.. haiz..

better go study now..bye!

the arrival of .....

deng deng deng....




finals!!!


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*emo*











yup... finals is here again...



ready?

nah...

when im ready for exams to be honest...haha


bt tha prob is my studying progress is like even slower than a senior citizen tortoise!! T.T




how???



continue emo ler... ^^v

where did my time fly to???

fiuh... 1 presentation went down..bt many more coming up... ><


so many things to finish up bt too little time given! i always feel so...
bt as i wander..m i the only one who feel so? or every1 is basically going through the same thing and experience as me?

rely.
i start counting down the amount of work i've completed or done this sem..bt to my surprise i couldn't recall anything big or significant dat took up most of my time n energy... okla..mayb besides helping out in Spring Fest and all..i rely couldn't figure out where my time flew to...

it has been a long time since i last feel energised or recharged...sleeping to me now is like an extra bonus for me...so busy dat i cant even find a proper time to rest wat more to sleep??
guess wat? i can even dosed off while typing my assignment ...or worst stil while holding my notes... cz i dont even realised dat i've already fell asleep! ><

cant wait for the day when everything is over~

i need sponsors!

yello peeps! sorry for not updating.. had been real busy this few weeks... new sem has started.bt everything including our timetable went chaotic. i rely dunu how those smart ppl up dere did our timetable.. the course n time clashes here n dere for the whole class! so everyone do not know when n where to attend lecture. wat group are they in and etc.. real haywire!! :S

thank buddha its all over now! finally i can hav a standard timetable n im NOT LOST anymore!! rely dun like that feeling where u do not know when and where to go..wats up next? lecture? yes no? wat sub? clueless..hate that chaotic-ness!!


not only tat, had been busy finding sponsorships for the upcoming spring fest. our chinese society wil b organising the 5th spring festival in conjuction wif chinese new year this year!(will blog bout that event later on).

so now, most of my time are spent either in lecture or calling sponsor! n i can now teel u dat im bankrupt! my phone bill is giving me heart attack! ><

and the sad part is...i stil need a main sponsor! someone pls b kind and sponsor our event! pls..........






trying to do some puppy eye plus emo effect to get more sponsor.. but obviously fail to the max!!
haiz...

fun time is over~

believe it or not?

1. my holidays are over and its now time to go back to malacca~ so sad rite?
why all good things must always come to an end so fast wan~~~~~~~~~~~~

2. 1 sem already passed and its sem2 is about to start dis monday.. am i ready for it yet? i really dunu..cz i dunu wat to expect this time? bt 1 thing for sure is that my timetable will more packed for this sem..no more time to relax and laze around in the hostel..haiz..

3. according to my new timetable..my class starts as early as 8. this means the shuttle bus wil come n pick us up at 7am..and my beauty sleep ends at 6am!! arghhh....and i hav class every single day!!! before this, im awayz free on thursday and fri.. bt looks like now not only i hav class on both days..these classes drags til late in the evening... bo hoo.....

brain went static cause of statics......

fiuh! *wipe sweat*

came out from statics battle today.. totally worn out physically n mentally...

physically?
yea.cz wasnt feeling well today plus the super cooling air-con that blew directly onto my face! i was like few seconds close to turning into a frozen daphne...

statics is smth that i always find confusing... its solve-able during practice but forever becomes an alien to u during exams..some how u ur brain wil turn STATIC when u r trying to solve STATICS!haiz....

really..speechless i m right now...

crossing fingers n hoping for the best to come i guess??hehe

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anyways, moving on..

im having japanese paper 2ml! but i seems to ferget my hiragana n katakana already! oh no!!

have to go search those words back in some store room behind my brain...

meanwhile, allow me to practice here a lil, can?


*ahem ahem*



はじめまして。わたしわデヅニです。マレーシアからきました。どうぞよろしく。^^v



ok.g2g gambate on my nihongo already. figure out what i wrote la k?hehe

wish me good luck!

latest update.

times is up!

few moment aways frm the final paper.



am i ready???

ans: .....................

dun dare to ans dis ques.





ok. g2g sit for exam already.

check list:





exam slip?







checked.






matric card?






checked.

decided not to show u my ugly face here. so i kinda blur it.hehe

wish me good luck again can?

k.

thx.

buhbye

8th of november???!!!

tick.tock.tick.tock.tick.tock..... *alarm rings*

woke up.

check calendar.

har?! 8th of november already????!!!

double check.

rub eye to make sure im reading the right calendar( i happened to read the wrong calendar before)

i word.

die!!

its really 8th of november now!!!

heart is pumping like crazy now.

*faint*

pasted this on the wall.

to remind everyone in the house including me, the dory fish.

(my friend's idea actually)

ok.

g2g get drown myself in a pool of self-notes now.

wish me good luck can?

can?

can?

ok.

thx for your luck.

buhbye.

stress...

darn! its saturday already!!!



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so how many days am i left with now? 1 and half day!!! *faint*





i hav to admit dat im not prepared for finals yet.. i dun hav the confidence to walk into the exam hall without my notes wif me...





but im rely trying my best to overcome this fear of mine... had been staying up late n burnt midnight oil almost every single day...



crap. i could not even remember when was my last time slepping soundly wif no worries at night! :((





dark circles are dominating my eyes now. now, when u see me, first thing u wil see is my freaking dark circles before my tired eyes.. T.T





dun believe me?



nah! i show u my ugly face..





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photo taken using my web cam..





blurry photo n yet the first thing u notice is my oh god dark circles!! argh....




according to my fwen's theory : one day my whole face wil turn black. u noe why? cz the dark circles are enlarging n multiplying... they hav no where else to grow so they spread to my entire face. n my entire face would turn black!







get it?? no? oh!nvm... just move on...

a lil twist to deepavali this year

its deepavali again! :)

so i would like to take this opprtunity to wish all my indian friends happy deepavali and as for the others, happy STUDY week!! haha

ya, i know. im such a kill joy cz i just hav to highlight the word STUDY to u all..haha..

anyways, saw this amazing kolam in new jusco that day! its superly huge k?

pictures was zoomed all the way frm 2nd or 3rd floor of the shopping mall using my baby c903 :)

i was actually amazed by it.hehe

cz they even have toning on it and to make it stand out.. they put glitters here n dere too! gorgeous and hard work i would say! bravo to the artist :)

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deepavali dis year was 'special'..

1. deepavali used to be happy day cz its a public holiday! me n mummy would end up ronda-ing around

dis year? its study week ler... =.=

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2. deepavali is supposed to be a festival of light isnt it? like bright light everywhere..soo bright til u might wana consider wearing sunglasses everywhere you go!haha

now? to hav a lil twist to it...

my 'genius' light in the living room choosed to blow off dis time..during study week!!

not only that! seeing that the light in the living room went caotic, the toilet light felt lonely n decided to kill himself too!!

so the whole house ended up bathing romantically in the toilet!lol its scary k?... cz i cant see anything in dere ><

no matter day or night its stil equally dark cz there isnt any window or smth in the toilet!ish...

i was teasing my roommate by telling her not to mistakenly used hair shampoo as facial cleanser or smth..hahaha

see! deepavali is so interesting dis year, no? lol

p/s: the fastest time for them to repair the lights would be this monday! so im gona spend my weekend emo-ing in the dark while studying i guess?haha

self-reflection : im disappointed...

this is just my own reflection..really..u can choose to ignore it.

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im disappointed wif myself.. seriously.. i dun get wats in my brain actually...

i study so hard..erm..okla..mayb not dat hard..but still... i studied ok? but i ended up being blank during exam hall..T.T

wats wrong wif me? wats d point for me to work so hard n i ended up losing memory/brain jam during exam?

is like as though im not studying at all..might as well just go play den when the time comes just go into the hall n take exam lo..since the end result would b almost d same...

u will never understand my feeling.. its miserable feeling helpless..

i look like a dumb dumb during exam :(

before exam..i can remember everything..can even them explain to my friend..

enter exam hall.. oh crap!wat did i studied just now?like total blank!!! den i started to stare at the paper..hopelessly..wishing buddha would fly to earth n save me....

so i ended up crapping in the whole paper n writting all the grandmama story i have created myself...

after exam.. darn!d answers slowly appear in my brain one by one hanuting me...


its frustrating u know??? i cant do anything anymore..felt like hiding in a corner n cry out loud for my stupidity...........


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bt i know dere's no point crying now..haiz....


i really couldnt understand myself n why buddha created me dis way?...

no interent connection :(

oh no!!!

of all time, the wifi in my hostel choose to go haywire at this particular week!! :(

this is the time where everyone would be superly busy with assignment and the surver just have to choose to commit suicide now?why now? and not later?

frustration is the word to describe my feeling right now....

is like you now u have lots of stuff to do but u just couldnt do it...

and then you starts to worry bout all those dateline..

i hate this feeling... T.T this just adds up the amount of stress that you have had in you...

*bang head to the wall*

exam stress

so yea, welcome to another nonsense post of mine..

am very very busy wif stuff these days so basically dun really have the blogging mood...

am in the middle of exam period and yet i have assignments piling up like PETRONAS twin tower!! so miserable:( and the datelines are getting closer... and my progress is like 0.001%

oh no!! i should smack myself for being so stupid!! T.T

exams makes me stress.. cz sadly i have to admit that im very kiasu..i cant imagine myself failing my very first exam in uni..omg..if i really fail the papers..i will just jump into a bowl of mushroom soup! seriously..

so this is my routine! studying..haiz...

me wana go out and play too :((((

and oh! my face is not cooperating too! here comes all the dark circles, eye bags and even pimples are popping out like volcanoes!! haiz.. there goes my ugly face..

so due to all this sadness + stress + kiasu-ness.. i be tahan and did this!

muahaha!!!

after drawing that, i felt better. then i realised that all my friends finish their ms test already, i became emo and did this....

but after all this nonsense, i further realised that im basically wasting my time doing that. so i came to a conclusion whish says, im gona be dead!

ok. thanks for allowing me to waste 5mins of your life. bye bye.

cheat my money wan....

so have you guys watch this movie already?







went to watch it 3d in gurney today :)



lined up the long q,
pay rm16,
collect the specs,
watched the movie,
came out disappointed :(




really... the movie is so short!! like 1 and half hours only..i mean dont u think such action movie should be around like 2 hours plus or smth?




not only dat... the movie DO NOT HAVE ENDING!! i pay rm16 watching a movie with no ending?? cheat my money wan...T.T


how could they cheat a poor kid like me? :(
i felt cheated and decided not to eat my dinner... :((




the movie came to the climax den suddenly end!! c la...kek ki or not?


and now i have to wait, lets say anada year, pay another rm16 just to watch the ending?

or worst still.. the next moving is gona end like this also.. and i will spend endless rm16.. and and the movie will turn out to be drama instead.lol



sorry la..today no mood plus lazy wana blog..so guess you guys have to hear me complain.



oh well...you choose to skip this post and come back some other time.but pls pls do me a favour...at least click and take a look at the advertisement can can?thx...:)



and oh! another thing to complain.hehe
the 3d specs hor i so big wei...keep on dropping down..as a result?i have to hold the evil specs through the whole movie so dat i can watch the show peacefully..lol


so basicaly, we pay rm16 to complain..haha

brilliant legacy

help!!!

im addicted to the show called brilliant legacy!! how can i watch it online?

anyone?