Because that's just the way they roll...

If sarcastic had a font...this WHOLE post would be written in THAT FONT!!!

I LOVE the way CPS schedules an impromptu meeting with me then asks me if we'd be willing to take Baby Sister (who STILL needs a blog name).  They ask me to rearrange my schedule to accommodate a newborn.  Dr's appointments, longer visit times to promote bonding, yada yada...

THEN this week, the agency worker is telling me 'Well, it might not even happen'. 
Ok, did I mention that I shopped??? No big deal if it doesn't happen but WHY not WAIT to tell me about it then??  Supposedly THAT is the reason they scheduled the meeting. 

THEN, THEN I called the county worker and she is almost SURE we're getting baby sister.  Can anyone BE more unaware of what's going on?  I feel like the agency works to keep me on my toes.  The county does their best to keep me as informed as I need to be.  Right now, we ARE planning on taking Baby Sister.  Little Mighty has not been feeling well since the weekend and his visit was rescheduled for tomorrow.  He had a cold, an ear infection and high fever.  He is finally looking better and hopefully on the mend.  Bio parents were adamant that I not see one specific Dr in the pediatrician's office.  This HAPPENS to be the Dr that admitted them and obviously they are not happy.  There are 2 Dr's int he practice now that I 'cannot make appointments with'.  Whatever dude.  I am seriously clueless about how this case will end.  The Dr and Barbie, the transporter are the only ones who seem to see these bios for what and who they really are.  It's very hard for me to be impartial.  I see what neglect has done to Little Mighty and it makes me angry with them.   

And so goes the roller coaster...

Just thought I'd mention that the agency worker has already told me not to get too attached to Little Mighty.  I am quite aware that the goal is always reunification.  But this boy as been neglected for the first almost 11 months of his life.  It's about time he find out how nice life is supposed to be.  Little Mighty is almost crawling now. He can get up on both hands and knees and rock.  He can (with support) lean on something standing on his knees.  He is eating quite well.  A 6-8 ounce bottle of formula for breakfast with a 6 ounce jar of cereal/fruit.  A 6-8 ounce bottle about 3 hours later.  He'll take a 2 hour morning nap.  For lunch he usually eats 2- 4 ounce jars (one fruit and one veggie) and a 6-8 ounce bottle again.  He'll play for a while then have another bottle and go down for a short nap.  When he wakes up he's eating another 2- 4 ounce jars (one dinner or veggie and one fruit) and before bed he'll have another 6-8 ounce bottle.  I thicken his baby food with a bit of rice cereal so it doesn't fall off the spoon.  This also is preparing him to eat thicker textures.  He has no aversion to textures that I can tell of.  He loves Ger*ber puffs and wagon wheel*s.  He also loves pudding, mashed potatoes, scrambled egg, and pizza crust.  He has 8 teeth...4 up top and 4 on the bottom.  He never turns food away.  He will keep eating until he gags.  The first few times I fed him I gave him 8 ounce bottles and then his jar food and he spit up a bit.  When we limit his bottle to 6 ounces he does much better.  He does take a pacifier.  I am trying to limit this to nap and bedtimes because of his teeth. 

That being said...

Last week we had someone new transport for the visit and HE said that the bio parents are appropriate and the visit went well.  Ok, what now?!?! 

On Wednesday, the agency worker (Genie) transported and supervised and said that there were a few red flags.  Bio mom is complaining again that she has to feed Little Mighty during the visit.  In MY defense, it was during a meal time.  She also complained that since I get his W*I*C checks that she has no money to buy food.  But they BOTH smoke cigarettes.  She made no effort to look in his diaper or change him while he was in her care.  She just sits there and complains about ME! 

On Friday, Barbie transported and supervised and she is such a realist.  She told me that the bio dad said that the neighbors smoke p0t next door and it must be seeping through the walls.  (Is anyone else laughing right now??)  Bio mom said I am abusive because Little Mighty gained so much weight in such a short time.  She also complained that she has a Urinary Tr@ct infection and that she missed her mental health counseling appointment and hope she doesn't get in trouble for it.  Her new baby is due next month and I am waiting to hear if they're going to be removing this one as well. 

This ride is crazy and I cannot predict the outcome.  I can only do my best with Little Mighty and HOPE it's what he needs at this time in his life.