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699707...
It is been more than a week now that I wake up wid a migraine... till I go to bed with one... I won t say it was an heavy migraine... but it feels more like a constant hangover... and i swear i did not drink...because of that, I have been sleeping approximately 3 to 4h per night which is half of what I used to sleep... till that wednesday... when I woke at 3 with sour pain in my stomach.... to be frank I freaked out cauze i never had this kind of pain before, I thought it was because I took too much meds to fix that damn migraine... but that stomach pain was coming.... and leaving...coming and leaving... at 3rd time I decided to go to the hospital in Dublin... wrong idea!
I took a cab, I guess the taxi driver freaked out when i asked him to drive me to the near hospital... might have think i was a drunkard ready to redecorate his brand new mercedes... I arrived at the emergency... first sign... '100 euros to pay for the consult...' (300 euros for non EU... still havent figure it out y)... well I have to tell you... you d better be not in a hurry or about to die... because before u can even see a nurse you have to answer a couple of admin questions.....
15 min later I got to see one nurse... who gave me that bracelet... you are number 699707 :) Then a second nurse came to get some blood sample... now too bad for me... I am not a big fan of needles... as a matter of fact... I was getting even sicker... specially when she fuck up twice... wondering which vein she could play wid... when i saw the size of needle I told 'oh It ain t gonna happen... no way u ll get that one in my arm' my veins have the tendancy to disappear when they feel the needle coming....
then a doctor came... welll when I say doctor she looked younger than me... was not wearing the white coat... and when i saw the colour right undernearth her eyes... a very dark purple... i guess the last time she saw a bed ... was more than 24 hours ago... and that did not re assure me at alll... but even though she messed up once... she finally decided to get a smaller needle... the one used for kids :P and got it through my vein :)
... What happened next.... well nothing... just wait....and wait... 1...2....3....4....5 hours....from 5AM become 10AM.... then 11.... from cubicle 12 with curtains around me they moved me to B1 which was just a parking space for sick people in the hallway... I sadly say goodbye to Louise an 85 years old lady located in cubicle 11 who was snoring or moving her arm too much so that her machine that was counting the BP or heart bip was beeping everytime.... I felt like I was in the geriatric department ...so much old people with Maurice who was looking for his sleepers to go to the bathroom or Edwards who was waiting for his pills to take :)
During these 5 hours... i felt ... empty... i felt like a number... number 699707... all the patients received a visit from someone.... except me... the results from the analysis were negatives... which is a good thing... but Doctor n3 told me to go and get rest... did i get a treatment for my migraines? nop Did I get the number of of neurologue ? Nops.... I left the hospital... alone... got a cab and went home.... the most disappointing is that some people who I thought was caring about me and was aware I was at the hospital did not bother coming not even calling... so when I heard my friends say.... it s only when u are in the shit... that you know who is your real friends ready to dig up for ya... well I guess now I know... am I sad? no but I am disappointed for sure... but in way I was not that surprised! Oh well... shit happens right! I am still alive so no big deal... i m just having a rough time with these bloody migraines ;( I ll be gone to France on monday to try a new treatment to try to reduce the number of migraines i m having... let s hope for the best. Won t be much around blogs.... my mum who is a nurse by the way will kill me if I spend to much time on the internet with my migraines and she is right :P
Anyway, I hope you people is having a gr888888888888t time.... i ll see you in a week!
Take Care!
I took a cab, I guess the taxi driver freaked out when i asked him to drive me to the near hospital... might have think i was a drunkard ready to redecorate his brand new mercedes... I arrived at the emergency... first sign... '100 euros to pay for the consult...' (300 euros for non EU... still havent figure it out y)... well I have to tell you... you d better be not in a hurry or about to die... because before u can even see a nurse you have to answer a couple of admin questions.....
15 min later I got to see one nurse... who gave me that bracelet... you are number 699707 :) Then a second nurse came to get some blood sample... now too bad for me... I am not a big fan of needles... as a matter of fact... I was getting even sicker... specially when she fuck up twice... wondering which vein she could play wid... when i saw the size of needle I told 'oh It ain t gonna happen... no way u ll get that one in my arm' my veins have the tendancy to disappear when they feel the needle coming....
then a doctor came... welll when I say doctor she looked younger than me... was not wearing the white coat... and when i saw the colour right undernearth her eyes... a very dark purple... i guess the last time she saw a bed ... was more than 24 hours ago... and that did not re assure me at alll... but even though she messed up once... she finally decided to get a smaller needle... the one used for kids :P and got it through my vein :)
... What happened next.... well nothing... just wait....and wait... 1...2....3....4....5 hours....from 5AM become 10AM.... then 11.... from cubicle 12 with curtains around me they moved me to B1 which was just a parking space for sick people in the hallway... I sadly say goodbye to Louise an 85 years old lady located in cubicle 11 who was snoring or moving her arm too much so that her machine that was counting the BP or heart bip was beeping everytime.... I felt like I was in the geriatric department ...so much old people with Maurice who was looking for his sleepers to go to the bathroom or Edwards who was waiting for his pills to take :)
During these 5 hours... i felt ... empty... i felt like a number... number 699707... all the patients received a visit from someone.... except me... the results from the analysis were negatives... which is a good thing... but Doctor n3 told me to go and get rest... did i get a treatment for my migraines? nop Did I get the number of of neurologue ? Nops.... I left the hospital... alone... got a cab and went home.... the most disappointing is that some people who I thought was caring about me and was aware I was at the hospital did not bother coming not even calling... so when I heard my friends say.... it s only when u are in the shit... that you know who is your real friends ready to dig up for ya... well I guess now I know... am I sad? no but I am disappointed for sure... but in way I was not that surprised! Oh well... shit happens right! I am still alive so no big deal... i m just having a rough time with these bloody migraines ;( I ll be gone to France on monday to try a new treatment to try to reduce the number of migraines i m having... let s hope for the best. Won t be much around blogs.... my mum who is a nurse by the way will kill me if I spend to much time on the internet with my migraines and she is right :P
Anyway, I hope you people is having a gr888888888888t time.... i ll see you in a week!
Take Care!
The last letter
It s 3 o clock in the morning when I first started to write that post on a piece of paper since I don t have internet at in my new place yet. For some reason I have some trouble finding some sleep since I moved, probably too much stuff to think about, i m sure my BP is about to explode right now.
Ironic it is when i said friday i won t leave, I guess i m a woman and I can change opinion easily over a weekend without internet, at least it made me realise something...
Years ago, I made a big mistake, I don t know if it s because of the way I ve been raised or just cz I m a silly naive French but I used to trust people to easily which caused me lot of troubles, disappointments, tears, anger and many more feelings I tried to avoid and more or less managed to for years now. I guess at some point, I slapped myself on the face and stop trusting people like that. It still take me lots of time now to trust people and therefore the number of my real friends have been consequently reduced. But after all I am a human and I make mistakes... and sometimes, rarely, but I make the same mistake twice. When i joined Blogville I became again the silly naive French I used to be and I trusted some People in no time. I have been so disappointed lately and the only person I should blame right now is myself because once again I repeated the same mistake. I guess it's even worst and ridiculous in blogville because I got attached to people I ve never met! In some way, Blogville is like the series 'Big Brothers'. I was the first one to make fun of these guys who pretend to be best friend forever even though they met each others 2 weeks ago. Living in a close environment like that people rely on each others faster than in real life. It' s like Blogville, when u spend like myself as much time as i used to spend I had the impression that some people were or became really close to me. But now it's like a 'pen friend': when I was a teenager I used to go to England for 3 weeks each year with a bunch of teens to learn english. I met lots of people who became 'friend' because we were all together stuck in a country where we could not understand much of the language. At the end of the 3rd week it was a sad moment to leave them all, promising to each others that we will still keep in touch and we did... the first months... we wrote letters for 3 months max then we moved on, I haven t kept in touch with one single person, and most of the time I was the last one sending a letter... I m still waiting for a reply...
Sadly, it looks the same in blogville now... more and more people leaves.. I sent some letters, still waiting for some reply, but i m not a teenager anymore, and patience has not been one of my qualities after all. I put some trust in some people and I m wondering if I made the right choice and it s bothering much that i m writing that damn post in the middle of the night.
For the past 3 months I had some good moments, and some disappointments, but i only blame me, I have been sad to many time to see people left Blogville. Frankly, right now I don t need anymore of that because I used to blog to make myself busy and forget about the fact that it is winter, that I don t belong where I am and that I was missing some company. But unfortunately Blogville became like Real life, with joy and disappointment and i won t be able to handle both Blogville and Real life at the same time right now. I know I know it sounds more dramatic than it is, it s 3AM in the morning, hard to put some coherence in my text and specially in english.
So this is my last letter for at least the next 3 months.
The end of the year is coming and i m gonna have to work my ass hard to finish properly and under pressure that business year. I will be on holidays for 2 weeks in France and since I miss terribly my family I won t be online much. As for the next months well I m guessing that my life won t get more exciting than it is now! So the reason why i said 3 months, it s because by march ... hopefully... I ll be ready to fly to India for 3 weeks of holidays and at least this time i will have something to blog about it with the thousand of pics i ll have in my camera... who knows maybe there I ll meet some of u guys :)
I will still pass by ur blogs ( i m still addicted to internet) and comment on it cz i still like to write.
Of course, I am gonna miss lots of people, I had some great moments, some laugh and learned so much from some of u guys and specially from my Indian friends, I already wanted to go to India but u guys made that desire increased so much during the past 3 months that no matter what happened in India, and whether some ass are trying to scared tourists to come to India, I will come to India, I hope it will be in March 2009 cause I have a wedding to attend but i'll be there.
It is time to put an end to that loooong final post of the year ( I might squeeze a small post for Xmas here :) I l still be online for those who want to stay in touch with me, u know how to reach me (for those who don t u have my email on my profile).
I ll be back fresh in 2009, don t know if u'll be around by that time so I m just gonna say 'Aurevoir' as 'Goodbye see u soon' for some and 'Adieu' as simply 'Goodbye' for some. In the meantime u take care people!
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