Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

It is official. This is officially the week from hell. Yes, it is HELL WEEK and I am being hazed like a mofo. So far my phone hasn't turned up. I haven't been sleeping well...since the daggone ceiling nearly caved in. I've had so much conflict and loss I need to check the planets to see what on Earth is going on. I thought today was finally going to settle down and go back to being relatively quiet. No such luck. Someon was waiting to do battle with me early this morning. I spent my whole morning trying to stroke their damn ego. If it weren't for the larger picture I would just say it's not even worth it. Follow up: The girl with the room to rent called yesterday. But since I lost my phone and had the service suspended I missed her and she offered the place to someone else. How do I know? Well, as I was riding the train home last evening to call her I saw her get on with her bicycle. Just my luck! The universe is telling me something. Maybe I'm not li...

What the hell??? My coworker...the one who flaked on renting her studio apartment has been discussing my business with our boss! I had a feeling she was going to do that. I mentioned some salary issues to her and she went to boss about it! GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! What the hell is going on around here????

Right now I have so much negativity swirling around me. People act like I owe them something . Please, I am tired of catering to everyone else's whims. My job requires me to give so much of my time and energy. I work too hard to deal with OPP and I have reached the brink. I am starting to shut down emotionally. I am starting to fall back into bad habits. I am becoming sensitive, critical and angry -- all the time . The next stage is for the anger to turn inward and them I become depressed. I don't want that to happen because other people have dumped their crap on me...their issues...their baggage. I've just spent a whole year sorting through my dirty laundry, so to speak, and people are trying to drag me into their drama. There is nowhere for the anger to go. I need a release! EBC Announcer: This is a test...this is only a test..... My girl Jilly from Philly gives it voice: If I gave you sanity For the whole of humanity, Had all the solutions For the pain and poll...

I'm having a horrible week. To top off what I've already been dealing with my cell phone was lost this morning on my way to work! I looked at a room for rent yesterday after work and the girl renting it said she would call today. I have no way of knowing if she calls since MY PHONE IS LOST!!!! Arrrrgghhhh!!!!

Dang, this week is started out jacked up! It ended on a damp note last week...literally. When it rains it pours...I could go on...no...really...I could! I cam home from work to discover Niagra Falls coming from the ceiling in my rented room. I was livid. I spent the entire night dumping pots, buckets and anything else that would hold water. I was cold, wet and pissed! By 4AM I'd had enough and started packing up my stuff. The next morning I was on Craigs.list looking for a new (temporary) home. So, this what it feels like to be homeless (in a sense...not fun!) I was already pissed because the "landlord" wants to jack up the rent by $200 a month. Mind you this is a family friend. I don't like people very much right now. To top it off my co-worker offered to rent me her studio then pulled out -- after she made the offer. What the hell is wrong with people?! Needless to say I am bitchy ...and with good reason. Grrrrrrrrr!!!! Oh yeah, and I still don't have to co...

I was gonna post today but then I lost my privacy so now I have to wait I have some peace and privacy again. I've got a lot to say. I'll be glad when the computer arrives.

Still here...and still waiting for my computer. Of course there were complications but I am waiting....still waiting.

The term can be used both as a noun ("hitting the bonk") and a verb ("to bonk halfway through the race"). This condition is also known to long-distance ( marathon ) runners, who usually refer to it as "hitting the wall". It is also referred to as the "green grass" as pupil dilation causes vivid hues to appear. (Wiki) After only three days back from vacation and I've already hit the wall. I would have thought that I could have lasted a week...maybe two. No such luck. I am tired! The new baby (my computer) still hasn't arrived. I really want it to come...and soon! I miss having a computer at my disposal. Soon come...soon come.

Getting a new computer! Wooo Hooo!!! I think I got a great deal but we'll see when it arrives. I can't wait! I still want to get an iMac for editing but in the interim at least I will have computer access outside of work. What's up with the $60/mo. service plans for internet access though? Any suggestions for getting around that?

....you know the rest. Hard to believe I haven't posted in 9 months. Crazy! Some of you have abandoned the world of cyber-voyeurism for other time consumers. I haven't had the time to spend online for "personal pleasure" as much as I use to. A lot has changed in my life and if I get more time to spend online I may reveal some of the details. Otherwise, I'll keep my little piece of real estate in cyberspace occupied for the time being. It wouldn't be a proper blog with a B&M session. I started a new job back in August. Salary, benefits and the like were supposed to be taken care of no later than September...right??? Wrong!!! Here it is January and I'm still not getting paid my proper salary, my benefits kicked in on December 1st but the HR person simply "forgot" to mail me my packet. Mind you, they also forgot to sign me up back when I started. WTF??? And then they wonder why people don't want to work in their district. Eff ups. I'm re...