Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Today I felt like I was on the verge of a breakdown. Perhaps I am on the verge of a breakthrough. I literally felt broken this afternoon. I couldn't go back to sleep last night so I started looking into going back to school this year. I'm in the process of completing my application now. I have to go. I started crying because this community breaks my heart. I try my hardest, but I always wind up being pegged the "bad guy." I quit! When things get like this, I know that it is time for me to go. So I am going. I have to go now. There is a lead position open for applicants at my job for September. They want you to do the equivalent of another job for an extra $9K. Why not round it up to $10K? Better yet it should be $12K. No one wants the extra work. Who can blame them? You aren't appreciated for what you already do so why do more? *shrugs* An extra $9K won't bring me joy. I'm just ready to leave...now. Other people make decisions, yet I get blamed for them....

Lately on the weekends I automatically wake up at 9:30 AM. My commitment has been to get going as soon as my foot touches the ground. I had fallen into a lazy mode where if I wasn't up and showered by say noonish it was pretty much a wrap for that day. I got up and started moving today. I think it is because I am increasing my energy by changing my dietary habits and vitamin regime. I was so sluggish for so long. I am beginning to feel like my old self. I spent last night playing music and dancing. I danced the blues away.   Woke up to gospel music playing. Watched CBS Sunday Morning. I feel like once that TV goes on or the laptop is cracked open my time is sucked away. I am also hoping that I can maintain it. Now that I think about it, I am still fresh off of vacation mode so I am still relatively refreshed. I am committed to treating my body better this year though. I am going to cook a head of cabbage and some lentils to eat this week. I was going to do red beans, but I w...