Mother's Day
It has been many years since I've celebrated mother's day. I am not a mother and my own mother has been gone for quite a while. I usually try to keep myself occupied - staying in to avoid the mother's and their children celebrating the day together so I won't start to miss my own mother. It doesn't help that her birthday and mine fall within the same month. May can be hard so I try to avoid thinking about it. I managed to do pretty well today. I slept most of the day, but now that I am up just thinking about my mom and the last months of her life. Thinking about the two men I was dating and how supportive they were before they abandoned me. Thinking that I probably could be and should be a mother, but at this point in my life have given up on that. Soooo, as my classmates become grandmothers and I find myself getting grayer and spreading wider, I wonder what the future has in store. Perhaps I will be lucky like my cousin BeeBee and finally marry the right man la...
