What she was and what she becomes..

Read a post and made me think. had this in my mind for so long.

we  all should take out time of ourselves.
Some days back i asked my mom what does she like.. she was confused. I told her that she had been so busy in family that she doesn't have time for her own hobby.
she said she liked reading novels a lot. My grand dad and mom used to share novels and now she doesn’t read any more. Ghar ka kaam kaj se Furshad nahi,
Most of Indian women forget their own individuality and become nothing but just a house wife. a wife, a daughter in law, a mother and many more relation after marriage but nothing to herself. The same lady is someone else after marriage. I hope this never happens to me. I have so many hobbies. I love music, plantation, i love spending time online, games and so many more things. i hope I get time for all after marriage too. Actually it also depends in what kinda family you get into (like job environment). It’s difficult to take out time in join family. It even more difficult to neutral family as there are hardly any helping hands.

 

Post idea – from Tiger’s recent post

related post by tiger – click here

A new turn

So finally back to pg life. No relative and total freedom and independence. I always hated being with relatives. It always good to know people from different background and cast. As i entered i saw on huge gal who had a thought cloud saying, 'aa bache ab teri bari. Tujhe toh main kacha khajaungi' but then later when i shifted she was the one who was talking more to me than other gals and sounded polite. She is miss GURPREET, engaged, panjabi, Mba in finance, some diploma too and now seeking for job. Not a localite. Another young lady who was polite too with low pitch or voice, Payal, also engaged, on phone secretly in evening with her fiance, Bengali ( i realise they are so talkative and loud. Thank god she has low pitch so isn't a problem. Problem starts with my room mate. Who is a eco hons. And is a teacher, looks like 20 years old but its 27. Talkative and loud. Watches Bengali channel and isn't comfortable watching English. Some Indian finds it difficult to catch their accent. Even it was difficult for me in beginning but now i don't need subtitles. Worse thing about watching angregi movie is your need to be attentive to hear dialogs or you miss it easily unlike hindi movie jismain hum dhyan bhi nagi dete but still it our ears follow them or they follow our ears :-)
coming back to pg, my pg owner turned up to be panjabi. The broker had told me its Marwari pg. No prob. My dad is the happiest to know that a Panjabi lady cooks for us. Aji parathe banao, hame bhi khilao. Its been three days and food is good. Pg is more like independent flat. Let me introduced to the more excited member, her name is versha, she was in Mumbai but actually from Banaras. She is high over heel on a guy called David. Yo guys no luck. She is committee too. Where are all the single ladies gone? ? Versha is cute. Most of the time she is out of house. She is an employee. Leaves by nine, always late and comes back around 9, all happy and smile cuz she and her bf works in name co. Last night she bought a balloon and was so excited but sadly it burst in no time. I don't understand what connection gals and with balloons, and cute things. I too like cute things being a girl but m not too too girlie and kiddo. She has a heart shape toy whom she presses and it says I LOVE U. Guys know how to make there gf happy with all these kinda flowery gift. Rd too does it at times. So sweet. I love him for everything.
Its good being here untill now. I won't give much i won't expect much. I'll be slow is making friends and I'll keep mum when one room mates speaks of other. Being neutral doesn't cuz prob. Learning from mistakes works.
To be cont.
waiting for data card .. i have to buy. wait till i m back. I Miss u all.

Away

I wont be online or on blog for some days.

I am shifting to a paying guest today. Yes still in Calcutta.
So until i get a new connection miss me. If u have a USP to gift me u surely can! :P
Miss u bloggers. Once a while I will be coming online through GPRS. so good if our timing coincide :)
What will happen to Mafia?? I will miss Mafia in FB. I will FB. I will miss Blog and conferencing in yahoo and gtalk. :((
But then ;;) I will be back with a bang

They sang to me...

There are songs which when played remind us of someone who is connected to the song. Some past memories flashes back and brings smile and tears both at same time. Some song remind us some incident which make us feel like as if the song was made for us. There are songs for all reason and for season. That's why one of my best friend is music. We can listen to song according to our mood. Some songs peps our mood and get our life back to track. Lets talk about songs that is connected to our life.

Songs of hum dil de chuke sanam reminds me of RD cuz tat was the time when he proposed me.
Song, tere naina reminds me of Ayush, i'd challenge him to mug up the song and sing me in a week. He lost the bet.
Song duba duba, aur Durrr reminds me of my friend Sachin , i'd recorded his voice in my phone when he sang that, sad i lost that phone and so did the sound clip.
Song of Deewana album by Sonu Nigam song reminds me of Peter. He sang it to me through voice conference. :-) he was awesome. Waiting for him to rap sometime. Songs of Himesh Reshamiya reminds of Aakash he loved to song and made me fall in love with some songs too like Aksar,
some English hip hop songs reminds me of Shally. We used to party hard and dance hard.
Some songs reminds me of some people cuz of there long time caller tune.
Which songs brings back you memory of someone? Lets share. Lets talk about it.

My dairy – Moral of the story???

Had left house early when my flat mates disclosed what was in their mind. I went to the common room to comb my hair and i could see both my cousins in a little worried expression. I didn't have a direct eye contact but i saw in through the mirror. Since many days i had been disturb. Friendship wasn't working out. With me relationships has always been easy. I make good friends and they are happy i'm in their life. There are Ppl who were after my life to be friend. I remember my encounter with AKS. The first time he saw me he  knew that i should be his friend. I'd been avoiding him but his affection and caring nature left with no choice than being his friend. M so happy i chose to be his friend. He likes when i speak to him. His worries decreases cuz he knows m always there for him just a call away. I'd always been helping, caring and sweet person. My friends who are close to me says don't be so sweet and easy Ppl will hurt you, take advantage of you and turn you down,use you cuz you are so easy with everyone. You don't mind being hurt if other person is happy.
I'd been trying so hard to work out this friendship. But i think there are something which should be left when its in your hand. I tried, it didn't succeed. Why? For good? May be. . Its hard to digest how someone can have prob wit me.
Coming back to story with my cousins. They suggested me to move out of flat cuz there has been issue with food, no maid to cook and i dnt know much cooking. With what ever i know i always say i can give my helping hands.
I too noticed difference in behaviour. I smile they don't . I talk , they reply, they don't talk anything directly. Its better to stay alone than staying with someone who don't even make any conversation.
When she made the suggestion that its better i find the pg, i didn't react. There were lot of things in my head. She actually read my mind. Something pinched me. I got ready and left. I hadn't made my mind where would i go. I didn't have my lunch also. I'd tuition and 2 and it was 12.15. With no other option coming in my mind i  decided to go to tuition centre. I called my friend Niki. She didn't ans. She called me back in two mins and the min she spoke to me what happened i burst out in tears. I don't know why. We spoke about the issue. Attended class for two almost three hours. Last two hours what my teacher spoke i had no clue. All i did was write what he was dictating. Every thing sound so alien. I walked back to the lane to catch the taxi when  the tuition got over. I walked and i thought many things. I smile and same time i cried.  I couldn't find the guy who always accompanied me to walk down the lane. Today i walked alone. He caught my pace and walked with me and i saw him walking faster. I realised he wanted to smoke. I wanted to smoke too but it wasn't the right place. I just had a line conversation with him when i saw one of cousin nearing me. She asked if i was going home or somewhere else. I had no clue. Definitely I was hungry and i wanted to be alone rather than sitting with some with whom i don't have any conversation and just a weird feeling in heart. She is very caring, very sweet. On her i'd written a poem dedicated a post. Life was smooth when i wrote about a friend to be. But i guess some friendships and not meant to be.
I took a taxi sat, didn't wanted to go back to flat and sit alone in the deserted room. I went to mac d to eat. Made several call to enquire about pg and then bought a smoke to took a taxi back to flat. Half way. I ask the taxi to turn to crossword. I came here. I found peace. I'm writing this post rather than reading a novel that i laid my hand into its a book my ROBIN SHARMA who writes about who will cry when you die. The same author who wrote monk who sold his Ferrari. Read few pages later felt nice and came back to flat.

Aree yaar hota hai life main. sab ki din hote hain.. aaj mera kharab kal kisi aur ka. Life hai hi kamini.. Aish kar.. Dhan ta nan… ta nan ta nan.

ya fir gani chaniye. Goli mar bheje main. bheja shor karna hai. Dhicyaun :)

Fighting the climate

I had opened An Ing Vysya bank account (student saving account) 4 yrs back with a view to save some money. Initially i deposited 2000, and on which i used up 1000 bucks and since then my BAnk account is loafing with only 1000 bucks which increase little bit by mercy of banks adding up interst money.

any ways. I will think again about saving.

i Got this email for ING VYSYA bank today and thought would like to share with you guys.,

WWF's Earth Hour is almost upon us. Millions of people across 930 cities are fighting the climate change by switching off their lights.
Join this movement by switching off your lights on Saturday, 28th March from 8:30 to 9:30 pm.

Here are 5 easy things we can do join hands against climate change.

• By turning the refrigerator thermostat down. Refrigerators account for about 20% of household electricity use.
• By fixing dripping taps. Sixty drips a minute mean about 1200 litres a month down the drain.
• By not leaving the television and other devices in standby mode. Some devices can use up to 90% as much power in standby mode.
• Unplug laptops and cell phones once they are fully charged, as they can be a constant drain on power throughout the day .
• Switching off your computers before you leave the office.
• Recycle paper whenever possible. Configure office copy machines to print on both sides of page.

Let’s all come together and share the spirit of Earth Hour in our everyday activities and make this earth a better place to live in.

Back to Blog

Its amazing feeling to be back home. Bro was there to pick me up in the airport. We went to eat ice cream and pizza on the way back home. My dog, Buddy greeted me with lots of kisses and there my mom and sis were standing with smile and arms wide open. It was so so amazing to receive hugs, i badly was in need to it. My grand dad couldn't believe his eyes When he saw me. May be he didn't have a clue that i was coming. It was a sudden plan after all. I was feeling lost in Calcutta. I didn't have single close friend.

May be that's how life is. Not always perfect. Have to deal with all the phases and each phase teaches you something special. A reason to live life. A reason to struggle for something you don't know. Life is all about phases and phases is all about life. How to be bright when you low, how to handle excitement and surprises are the each levels of life. All the best with it.
I've come to conclusion how I can handle my mood when i am low. Here are some of my secrets to change my mood

1. talk to someone who is most of the time funny and whose talks makes You laugh. Positivity kills negativity right?
2. Listen to good music is loud volume for sometime so that you can't think of anything else not even your own thoughts .
3. Go out with bunch of friends and shop or eat or do something that makes you smile.
4. I love watching flights in sky. Its something that always bring smile on my face. So when 'm low you might find me looking at the sky to catch a glimpse of Aeroplane or if not, going for a drive to airport.
5. Read Cosmopolitan magazine.
6. Talk on phone with someone who won't make fun when you cry on phone. So if you have no way out let the being low phase out of your body crying for once and for all helps.
7. Watch a nice movie.
8. Drink, get high, yell and get over with it for once and for all. If you are not a yelling kinda person you can stay calm, composite and go to bed of coarse to sleep.

I have jotted down 8 points. Now its your turn to share some secrets. What do you do to change your mood when You are low?

P.S. I just reached Kolkata today. Got headache and feeling pathetic.