Settlement through BK Shivani

It hasnt been long enough that i was introduced to one to The Brahma Kumari BK Shivani by one my very close friend.
Since then I have been habitually following her on YouTube, Facebook where i get her regular updates.
A guide to simple, settled, optimistic way of living through optimistic thought.

I now realised how unsettled I used to be, how much I used ponder unlessly over unnecessary things and wasted my precious time. I learnt how I can stop my mind from non stop chattering and guide my mind to be peaceful, powerful, diivne and loveable soul.

I asked my mother few months back if i can have a Guru who can guide me through life, who can give me advise to walk through the right way if I am wrong. She told me it never was late to follow Guru. My question was how do I find one? How will I know if this is the right one for me.

Long back i happened to see a video on parenting advise by Bk Shivani and Shekar. It was sort of Interview one-one types where Shekar seemed to be unsettled with his questions on parenting and how BK Shivani answered all this questions so politely with optimistic thoughts. It interested me. I then thought may be i have a spritual side of me which i didnt know. I tried listening to other speakers of Spritual thought but all went above my head. BK Shivani speaks in simple language and talks about practical situations. She guides well towards the way to optimism in all situations.

I felt a friend in her who staying so far understood my problems and helped me though.

I never was a easy let go person but now letting go is so easy.
I have become more forgiving, which make me feel more powerful and strong inside. It makes me feel happy. A smile within as if a pure soul has touch my soul and now I am under a spell of some magic which can completely taken hold of me and would drag me away from negetive energies.

And unsettled part continues..

For once I felt blogging makes me more restless because I keep wondering about the situation which makes me hold to it and I can't move on. The more you talk about any situation the more you have it in your thought.

After a long time I am back to posting a new content in blog hoping it will bring me some settlement. There comes a time when you want to talk to someone about how you feel but then you don't want to talk to people you know, you want to talk to someone who doesn't know you who doesn't judge you and still can be with you, can understand the situation and suggest you. I try my best to live my life at ease. I promised many times to myself that I won't be hurt by others and I won't give the key to my happiness to someone els. The key should be with me.

Now and then the situation provokes me to handover the key of my happiness to someone else and then my conscious mind remind me to smash it and keep it to myself. I Wonder myself how easy is to be hurt just by looking at someone, just the presence of someone. I wish I can move on easily in life, I am too tired of fighting with myself fighting in my own thoughts.