A fine new novel I reviewed for Scroll, about Kashmir and much else:
In ‘A Bit of Everything’, author Sandeep Raina travels with questions of memories and victimhood.
About ten pages into Sandeep Raina’s novel, the Kashmiri Pandit
protagonist is asked if he would like to watch a film about the history
of the concentration camp he is visiting. Rahul Razdan has just arrived
in Europe after six despairing years in Delhi, and walking around Dachau
has already filled his mind with thoughts of his homeland. Something
about the Austrian stranger’s innocuous question jolts the usually
subdued young professor out of melancholia into sudden rage. “I have
seen it all, I have felt it, I have been the film. Why would I want to
see it all again?” he snaps.
A Bit of Everything is
punctuated by incandescent moments like this one, where the light – and
heat – from a still-smouldering bit of memory suddenly illuminates the
drab, papered-over present, sometimes threatening to set it on fire. But
such sparks are rare, because they are dangerous. Most people, most of
the time, prefer to view the past nostalgically, and Rahul is no
different. In the nostalgic mode, too, the mental analogy is with a film
– but a film one watches over and over because one yearns to inhabit it again.
“The past could be
recalled easily, it could be comforting. He could rely on it. He could
replay his fondest memories. Sitting here in a cold lounge on a cold
leather sofa, he could recall a summer garden, a breezy afternoon, a
book aglow under a winter candle, the smell of a wooden bukhari, warm
toes in woollen socks, the scent of apples in straw boxes, pine-needle
charcoal smoking in a kangri, Doora’s fluttering sari. The past could be
relived as he wanted. The problem was with the present.”
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A Bit of Everything, by Sandeep Raina. Westland, 2020.
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A slow souring
Raina
understands the workings of memory from the inside out. His book is a
self-reflexive take on how we craft the narratives of our lives: as
individuals, as families, as communities, as nations. It is no
coincidence that Raina’s fictional narrator, the mild-mannered Rahul,
has the rare ability to accept himself – his bafflement, his grief, his
anger – without denying others his empathy. That empathetic quality is
particularly valuable in a paean to a lost Kashmiri Pandit homeland, because the granular personal memory of that loss is too often dissolved into a politically expedient history of collective Hindu victimhood.
After
they were forced to leave the increasingly communalised valley in the
early 1990s, the Pandits’ painful and legitimate grievances have been
sucked more and more into a narrative not of their making. The community
is now a crucial pawn in the Sangh Parivar’s game of whataboutery, a
game which politicians benefit from keeping alive.
We live with
Rahul and the others the wrenching violence of the Pandit experience, of
having been uprooted from the only home they had ever known, with
little notice and few avenues for return. But their fear and hurt and
befuddlement is not marshalled into some easy post-facto
rationalisation. Raina’s protagonists refuse to play the static parts
assigned to them in that never-ending majoritarian game: Pandits are not
perpetually wounded victims, Muslims are not perpetually ungrateful
traitors. (Even those from the “forces’ families” are allowed
complicated inner lives by Raina – though he makes it clear that India’s
defence establishment is its own social category in Kashmir.)
Instead,
Raina’s narrative burden is the slow souring of once-warm relationships
– and like his professorial narrator, he takes it seriously. If he
revels in the sights and smells and sounds of his beloved house and
garden, painting a often-idyllic picture of the sleepy small town of
Varmull (I had to google to realise it’s the Baramulla of news reports),
Rahul is equally punctilious about recording the fault-lines beneath
the surface. The cross-community connections of Tashkent Street are
real, but they contain within them the seeds of discord.
On Tashkent Street
So,
for instance, we learn that Rahul and Doora build their “Haseen House”
on a spur of the fields belonging to Doora’s family. It’s a detail, but
one that helps understand how historical resentments brew: Pandits own
all the arable land for miles, while it is poorer Muslims like Firoz and
his brother who know how to cultivate it.
Rahul’s relationship
to Firoze lies at the core of the novel: their bonding over the garden;
Rahul’s awkward silence when Firoze takes the blame for a theft that his
brother may or may not have committed; his attempt to compensate by
teaching Firoze English literature for free. The inequality once
tempered by neighbourly attachment becomes unbridgeable as social
distrust deepens.
Then there’s the story of Kris, originally
Krishna, who lives in one of the derelict houses on Jadeed Street where
most of Varmull’s Dalits lived, “no one knew since when”. After his
father dies cleaning a gutter, he comes to work in Rahul and Doora’s
house at 13, hoping to acquire some education alongside his domestic
duties. But Doora catches him pilfering and sends him away, launching
him on a series of adventures in religion. First disallowed into the
temple on Gosain Hill, then offered a new name and a Koran but barred
from the mosque as “napaak” (impure), the Dalit boy finally becomes a
Christian at 14.
Tashkent Street enables unlikely connections, but
also watches them with suspicion. If the relationship between Kris and
the poor Pandit girl Ragnee raises eyebrows, so does the fact of
Firoze’s and Asha Dhar’s mother becoming friends over their daughters’
weddings – and the Ramayan. “I can’t understand the trittam-krittam,
trit-pit Hindi they speak in the show, and no one at home tells me
anything,” says Firoze’s mother to her son to explain why she goes to
Asha Dhar’s house to watch the Hindu epic on Doordarshan every Sunday.
“Mother, focus on your Pashto, not your Hindi,” laughs Firoze, while
telling Rahul privately that it’s the Dhars’ cooking she can’t stay away
from. Asha Dhar’s husband Pt Dhar, too, is unhappy with the friendship,
which brings the Khan family – including their younger son Manzoor –
into unnecessary proximity with his teenaged daughters.
Coming home
Over
and over, Raina catches cultural and linguistic undercurrents that are
the waves of the future: Iqbal Bano playing at a Pandit wedding before
being turned off for its Pakistani-ness; Arun Dhar averting his eyes
when asked about his friend Manzoor, or Pt Dhar dropping his voice to a
whisper when he talks about his son-in-law’s “Shankhi” leanings so that
the shopkeeper can’t hear him, or telling Rahul that he should say
“poshte” because Muslims say “mubarakh”.
Raina’s radar may be
stronger in Varmull, but it is alert to signals of contradiction even in
Delhi and London – the intra-Muslim divide between Pashto-speakers and
others; his Babri-destroying cousin Chaman who assures Doora that Rahul
won’t fall into bad habits abroad, while winking at him and talking
about marrying a mem; the Trinidadian Hindus who toast “Raoul” with beef
doner kababs and whiskey while enlisting his services as a pandit for
their planned Sanatan temple in Tooting.
Rahul’s final return – to
India and to Kashmir – is the only unconvincing part of the book,
perhaps because Raina’s attempt to unravel all the knots of the past at
once feels more like wish-fulfilment than reality. But this is still a
book to be read for its closely observed, deeply felt sense of Kashmir: a
world seen from the inside, and then sadly, painfully, from afar.
In this, A Bit of Everything is the complementary opposite of Madhuri Vijay’s award-winning 2019 novel The Far Field,
in which we travel into Kashmir alongside a privileged young woman for
whom the place is just a name. It is her slow and revelatory transition,
from clueless to tragically embroiled, that helps forge ours.
Unlike
Shalini, whose understanding grows as she embeds herself in Kashmir,
Rahul begins to understand many things as he is removed from them, once
he is no longer a “god of education” in Varmull. Distance and time help
recalibrate the familiar.
The British section of the book is
powerfully evocative, offering a rare glimpse of the South Asian
immigrant experience in all its trials and excitements. As someone who
studied in England at an age and time close to the fictional Rahul, I
found much that felt deeply recognisable: the insufferable white
academic who generously “simplifies” his name for the brown person
(while not even thinking to ask how to pronounce yours), the sad,
desperate search for ingredients to cook your own food, and the
unexpected intimacies with other brown people.
Sometimes these
connections with strangers feel stronger than with one’s known people,
like Rahul and the man who sells Kashmiri noon chai on a London street.
In a world governed by whiteness, brown skin can stretch to cover the
bones of class and caste, religion and nation. The differences magnified
in the sameness of Varmull can shrink to nothingness in London. That,
too, is a revelation.
Published in Scroll, 30 Jan 2021.